Hi, I am back. I have gained a lot of weight because of poor eating and not exercising well. I started out on this journey feeling overweight but confident that I can do well. Today I weighed myself and I jumped back up to 218. I think this is the biggest I have been in over a year. I look back on my year compared to last year. This time last year I was always at the gym working it out and getting in shaped for the 1/2 marathon. My relationship with Caleb was fresh and not serious so we did not talk everyday. I think I was making more efforts to eat better.
Fast forward to now I am not working out as much or as long as I was. I talk to Caleb everyday, I eat poorly and go out way too much. How can I stop this vicious cycle? My clothing is starting to feel tighter, my stomach is looking large because it is larger and I am not loving my body. Caleb still tells me I am attractive and he loves my body and I think that because I have this great guy who is faithful and loves me that I don't care how I look but I do not want to go up to a size 16 but my 14 is getting really out of control. To top it off I am working on my dissertation so I am finding it hard to have time for everything.
What has been helping is that Caleb and I have started walking/hiking over the weekends for about an hour but I think I need to be doing something more. I don't want to keep gaining weight and I know I need to make better choices for health and financial reasons. I guess 2010 was my year for new love and now 2011 is my year to get financially and physically in shape. I am making this vow that I will work out more, incorporate strength training and eat better. Today is a new day and I am ready for this life long program. Wish me luck and hopefully their will be less of me next time.
