My life change for real this time

So here I am once again typing that I want to lose weight and that I will give it my all. Well what the crap is wrong with me in that I stop things. I started P90X with Caleb and completed my 6 days a week faithfully until Monday, June 27. Why did I stop that day, well my unhappiness with the program hit the fan on Sunday. I spoke to Caleb about it and came to the realization that P90X will tone my fat body. I don't want 200lbs of me toned, I want less of me, then toning. So far on P90X my weight loss ranged from 1 to 2 lbs. REALLY?!?!? After almost 2 full months 6 days a week. I was beyond devastated. So on Sunday I looked at other beachbody stuff and got reacquainted with Turbofire. I saw this ad around the start of month 2 but since Caleb and I were staying strong with P90X I decided to continue with it, even though Turbofire had so much that was for me. Dancing, cardio and extreme fat burning. Do not get me wrong, I think P90X is great, I think that it was Step 2 when I desperately needed Step 1. So this week I stopped P90X and feel like a failure that I stopped a program but I have to do what is right for me and P90X is not right for me as of right now. I have seen a change in me though. I can lift more weight than I have before, I know that I loss inches off my body, I was eating healthier and feeling better. I just wanted the weight to drop as well.

This week I researched things about Turbofire and I truly believe that if Caleb and I did the research for P90X we would have saw that it was a step advance for us. Turbofire requires calorie deficit to lose weight. Not rocket science and it is cardio. I am gonna give this program the best of me and to prove it I took a real before picture, granted I am not in my sports bra or a bikini top like they recommended but I am in a tank top in which you can clearly see the fat and I am wearing shorts so you can see my thighs and butt. I also weighed myself, took measurements and calculated via scale my BMI. Let me just say doing all of that has really humbled me and made me even more charged to do this. Granted I was before, but I see my body and the measurements and I am thinking, how did I ever let it get this bad. Food is good, but my health is more important.

Here is the breakdown as of today:

Weight: 217.4 (overweight, my range should be 154-169.4, so I am 47.6lbs overweight)
BMI: 32.4% (obese range, high risk of all health problems, healthy range is 13-24%)
Body Fat: 41.5% (obese, healthy range is 21-33%)
Bone Mass: 6.4 (looked online and saw that the range for me should be 6-6.8%)
Water: 42.4% (online it stated that the range for me should be between 40-60)

Measurements:
Right Arm: 15 Right Thigh: 26.8
Left Arm: 15.5 Left Thigh: 27.4
Belly Button: 42
Chest: 41.4
Fattest part of Belly: 41.5
Hips: 45.5
Pants size: 14
Shirt size: medium but mostly large depending on store

Well that is the breakdown of me. I am not proud that I have gotten this bad, but I know that I can do it. I want to be healthier, and looking at these numbers that is not an option. I have to improve or I get more susceptible to diseases and my knees will continue to hurt me. My body can not continue to carry this extra weight. Wish me luck on my journey. I need to get better with blogging about this, I think if nothing changes that I should not write but in fact that is when I need to write so that I can process what happens.

Goal & Reward Breakdown:
After losing 5 pounds I will purchase 2 songs from iTunes
After losing 10 lbs I will purchase Reds picture of Maggie and I
After losing 15 pounds I will get a manicure
After losing 20 pounds I will purchase a new pair of jeans
After losing 25 lbs I will get a pedicure or my hair done if my toenail has not grown back
After losing 30 pounds I will buy a new iPod
After losing 35 pounds I will get a massage
After losing 40 pounds I will buy 2 new outfits
After losing 45 pounds I will buy 2 new pairs of shoes
After losing 50 pounds I will be at goal weight and I will have a total spa day: manicure, pedicure and hair.

Wish me luck and I will continue to check in on a weekly basis. Today I am starting the Inferno plan for 5 days. This is where I am jump starting my workout and eating right. For the next five days I will eat less and do the Turbofire workouts. I am projected to be complete with this on July 6th at night and I weigh in on the next day which will be Thursday the 7th. At that time I will blog and post updates on weight and measurements. Hopefully I will be able to purchase my first goal reward.

I think it is good to have consequences for weight gain, but not severe. So if at any time I gain weight after a weigh in I have to assess the reason for the weight gain and depending on the reasons walk an extra 30 minutes 2 times a week, lower calories (if necessary) and cut back one hour of tv for 3 days.