Almost a year later and same issue.....

So I feel like I reached a low point in my weight but when I looked at past weigh ins, even though I have gained, I am not at my biggest which was 245, but I am at 242.4 so not that far away from biggest point. So I decided that since I will be marrying the love of my life on May 4th that I want to look back on the pictures and just focus on the happiness felt and not how I looked. But as try as I do, it is hard to accept that as my dress is an 18 and I am almost 250. I am a little mad at myself because I did not take advantage of this year like I should have, but you know what?!?!? I still have 5 more months and that is all that matters. Well, honestly all that matters is that I love this man and I am so pleased and blessed to be planning our lives together. So I decided to jump start my weight loss for the millionth time ( I know). I decided to do this 7 day detox that I found online and it is pretty much a vegetarian diet but the way I am doing it is as a vegan diet minus the daily yogurt I eat as breakfast or snack. I have also decided to the squat challenge which is start off doing 20 and each day increase by 5 until you get to 100 and then do some combination of numbers from the 1st to the 31st of December. I have also decided that I will start going back to the gym MWF and on the weekends do Turbofire until January 20th in which I will start the hybrid of P90X and Turbofire for three months which should have me finished by April 20th. After the completion of the program I will just go to the gym to lift weights and such until the wedding day. Granted after the wedding my goal is still to lose weight and manage it but I think I am going to be a bit more hard core now. A week or so ago, Caleb and I got back our engagement pictures and the first viewing was just horrible. Mind you I thought I was looking good. I knew my weight was not ideal so for several weeks I stopped weighing myself and I just did not feel fat. Looking at those pictures with Caleb I thought, oh my goodness, I am a fat beast. It took viewing them a second time reflecting on my love of him for me to be happy with the pictures. Thankfully we found some that we loved, others that were great and then the rest were so-so. Overall I am pleased we found this lady and she captured our pictures. But I told myself that when we get married I pray that my first reaction is notthe horrified and hatred I felt as I looked at myself. I can say that is the first time I felt that was since dating Caleb. He and I have taken many pictures before and even though my weight has fluctatated since April 2010, I look fondly at the pictures and love them. I want to feel the same way again. Body wise I am roughly 45-50lbs heavier than I was when he and I first met so my goal is to try to get back down to that as close and as healthly as possible. I straddle between a size 14-16 and when we met I was probably a hard 12 with rare occassions of 14. I do not think I hit the 14 mark until after the first year. For my motivations I have my first dress hanging so that I can now see it everyday. I do remember that I was a bit boobie in it so maybe it was a little too tight in the girl's area but it is a wonderful dress with a great memory. My goal is to wear it by May 2nd which is our tentative ceremony rehearsal. How awesome would it be to wear my first date gear to an evet which signifies how far we have come as a couple. So God, please keep me focused and motivated to continue on this journey. I know I can do this and so I say goodbye to eating majority of processed foods, hello to straight home cooking with some detours into eating out but not as much as he and I used to do. I am worried because December is a time of eating and celebrating as I have received several happy birthday dinner/sweet treat coupons, I know that I will be going out to dinner with Caleb, lunch with Doreen, who knows what Danae will do for me. I will also have at least one Christmas party to attend so I just gotta stay strong, eat portion size, exercise and stay positive.

What's on Daisy Mae's mind?: 12 Weeks of Healthy Food

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5 Day Inferno Plan Results

So all, I have survived. I consumed half of the calories that I normally do (roughly 1100-1200) and I tried working out to Turbofire. This will be an intense workout program but I am ready for it.

Now on, to my results, I am now 210.6lbs which means that I lost an amazing 6.8lbs. I can not believe it. I am so happy. I spoke to Caleb about it and he said that it looks like I lost some weight. My pants are fitting really nicely and I do not think it will be too long before I am rocking the size 12. My BMI also dropped. I am now 31.9 so I am pleased with that.

Wish me luck. My goal is to average 1800-2000 calories a day so that I can hopefully lose some weight. This is a challenging month in that it is Caleb's birthday so I am making him a cake and we will go out to dinner to celebrate and we are heading off to TN in which I know that we will eat out at least 2 times. As long as I keep pushing myself for the workouts I think I will do well.

Now I get to reward myself with 5 iTunes songs!!! And the great thing with losing 6.8lbs is that I am only 3.2lbs away from achieving a loss of 10lbs which is another reward. Yay!!! Wish me luck and I will check in with you on July 14th. Hopefully there will be less of me.

My progress so far

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My life change for real this time

So here I am once again typing that I want to lose weight and that I will give it my all. Well what the crap is wrong with me in that I stop things. I started P90X with Caleb and completed my 6 days a week faithfully until Monday, June 27. Why did I stop that day, well my unhappiness with the program hit the fan on Sunday. I spoke to Caleb about it and came to the realization that P90X will tone my fat body. I don't want 200lbs of me toned, I want less of me, then toning. So far on P90X my weight loss ranged from 1 to 2 lbs. REALLY?!?!? After almost 2 full months 6 days a week. I was beyond devastated. So on Sunday I looked at other beachbody stuff and got reacquainted with Turbofire. I saw this ad around the start of month 2 but since Caleb and I were staying strong with P90X I decided to continue with it, even though Turbofire had so much that was for me. Dancing, cardio and extreme fat burning. Do not get me wrong, I think P90X is great, I think that it was Step 2 when I desperately needed Step 1. So this week I stopped P90X and feel like a failure that I stopped a program but I have to do what is right for me and P90X is not right for me as of right now. I have seen a change in me though. I can lift more weight than I have before, I know that I loss inches off my body, I was eating healthier and feeling better. I just wanted the weight to drop as well.

This week I researched things about Turbofire and I truly believe that if Caleb and I did the research for P90X we would have saw that it was a step advance for us. Turbofire requires calorie deficit to lose weight. Not rocket science and it is cardio. I am gonna give this program the best of me and to prove it I took a real before picture, granted I am not in my sports bra or a bikini top like they recommended but I am in a tank top in which you can clearly see the fat and I am wearing shorts so you can see my thighs and butt. I also weighed myself, took measurements and calculated via scale my BMI. Let me just say doing all of that has really humbled me and made me even more charged to do this. Granted I was before, but I see my body and the measurements and I am thinking, how did I ever let it get this bad. Food is good, but my health is more important.

Here is the breakdown as of today:

Weight: 217.4 (overweight, my range should be 154-169.4, so I am 47.6lbs overweight)
BMI: 32.4% (obese range, high risk of all health problems, healthy range is 13-24%)
Body Fat: 41.5% (obese, healthy range is 21-33%)
Bone Mass: 6.4 (looked online and saw that the range for me should be 6-6.8%)
Water: 42.4% (online it stated that the range for me should be between 40-60)

Measurements:
Right Arm: 15 Right Thigh: 26.8
Left Arm: 15.5 Left Thigh: 27.4
Belly Button: 42
Chest: 41.4
Fattest part of Belly: 41.5
Hips: 45.5
Pants size: 14
Shirt size: medium but mostly large depending on store

Well that is the breakdown of me. I am not proud that I have gotten this bad, but I know that I can do it. I want to be healthier, and looking at these numbers that is not an option. I have to improve or I get more susceptible to diseases and my knees will continue to hurt me. My body can not continue to carry this extra weight. Wish me luck on my journey. I need to get better with blogging about this, I think if nothing changes that I should not write but in fact that is when I need to write so that I can process what happens.

Goal & Reward Breakdown:
After losing 5 pounds I will purchase 2 songs from iTunes
After losing 10 lbs I will purchase Reds picture of Maggie and I
After losing 15 pounds I will get a manicure
After losing 20 pounds I will purchase a new pair of jeans
After losing 25 lbs I will get a pedicure or my hair done if my toenail has not grown back
After losing 30 pounds I will buy a new iPod
After losing 35 pounds I will get a massage
After losing 40 pounds I will buy 2 new outfits
After losing 45 pounds I will buy 2 new pairs of shoes
After losing 50 pounds I will be at goal weight and I will have a total spa day: manicure, pedicure and hair.

Wish me luck and I will continue to check in on a weekly basis. Today I am starting the Inferno plan for 5 days. This is where I am jump starting my workout and eating right. For the next five days I will eat less and do the Turbofire workouts. I am projected to be complete with this on July 6th at night and I weigh in on the next day which will be Thursday the 7th. At that time I will blog and post updates on weight and measurements. Hopefully I will be able to purchase my first goal reward.

I think it is good to have consequences for weight gain, but not severe. So if at any time I gain weight after a weigh in I have to assess the reason for the weight gain and depending on the reasons walk an extra 30 minutes 2 times a week, lower calories (if necessary) and cut back one hour of tv for 3 days.

TurboFire 90 Day Workout Review

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Less of me from initial P90X weight of 219

So I am thinking that I need to weigh myself on Thursdays for now on. The reason why is because I have two different weigh in days and weigh tends to fluctuate and so picking one day will be good. I also say that because Monday is normally my weigh in days because it is the start of the week etc and when I started to do Weight Watchers on the 2nd.

Then Caleb and I were going to start P90X on Saturday the 7th and they said pick a day and weigh yourself. I also chose Thursday because I wanted to really see if my WW diet was making a difference and that is when I got down to 219 a weight loss of 3.8 (woot woot). Then I weighed myself on Monday after my first weekend of P90X and got down one more pound 218 and I was pretty pleased. I did not weigh myself last Thursday because I was at Caleb's and he does not have a scale so I had to wait until Monday and that is when I went back to 219 or 219.6.

Because my initial P90X weight was on a Thursday and was 219 I am just going by 219 as my initial weight at the start of P90X. Every weigh in will be judged by my initial weight of 219. So today my weigh in day and I am 217.6. I did a little jig.

My clothes are fitting better and I am super excited. I am eating so healthly it is kinda crazy. Plenty of times I stopped eating so much because I am full and this is when I am eating chicken or veggies. I am also happy with this weight loss because it just shows that the weight gain from Monday was do to being on my period. Even though intellectually I knew that, it still hurt my feelings on Monday.

So since starting P90X I am not sure how many inches or percentage body fat I have lost, but I do know that I have loss a total of 1.4lbs. I will take that success :)